Sunday, April 30, 2006

"Me for You"

But the world is no longer the same as before as You are!

 

When the world’s finished

            I’ii be with You,

When the matter persists

I’ill consists You,

When the flower sheds

I’ii bloom for You

When nothingness flourishes

I’ii enrich You

When the heart slows down

I’ii emulate You

When the words burst

I’ii enclose You

When the world’s finished

I’ii love You still

 

When I love You, will You?

still the love hibernates,

only me to simulate,

Are You there?

Are You for me or me for You?

waiting… waiting… and waiting…

Dated: May 16, 2005

Saturday, April 29, 2006

Desperate Weblog

Poesy: Thanks for being my world!

Thanks for being my world!

 

The rain just stopped,

Plethora of facts

Parted cloud number nine

But thanks for being my world.

 

To opt to live for

More two days of my life

You needed for a reason or a two

Penury balls sting

But thanks for being my world.

 

Nothing that flourished, yet

Reaperer’s souls that got to live now,

Those tears wear my life

Symmetry you couldn’t choose for

But thanks for being my world.

 

Supports, mere fanatical

Inspirations mere fathomable

When pines were lost in glory

Still somewhere something clings

But now, my friend,

Thanks for being my world.

 

>>>>> 

Leettle Ledi

April 25, 2006

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

"Alone Here"

 

Sitting here with no one beside

But only the raindrops,

Which has my tears to wipe.

Those black clouds are pouring the pain

Which is hidden in every drop of rain.

 

The sky is also crying with me

And wiping my tears away.

It is giving me company

In my loneliness today.

 

Living alone, lost in the darkness.

The rain is with me in my sadness

It always comes when I am hurt

And helps me to overcome the unwanted curse.

 

So much left out from others

With not even a single one who bothers

Living today in this lonely place

Whose silence defense me,

And frightens its space

If no on with me matters

The rain always supports me

The lonely life I am living

Shatters all the dreams which I had ever seen.

Written by: Amrita Rajbhandary

Friday, April 21, 2006

Life’s b’ful: Be it You or Not!

 

Dear S^^^^^a,

 

It’s all gone by leaving memories behind the curtain. Rain shall make it’s way and dreams shall got to You. Presented here’s what was to be with You and what’s today seems like.

 

Is it so? Might be but certainly ‘a’ not as certain as is. Color of specs oh! Yes. A pessimistic monochromic vision studded ‘a star-dead celestials’, lest You never know what’s going to happen the next minute. A totalitarian, a women’s fervent odium(er), a perfect hedonist’s paradise of misogyny... but don’t obsolete yourself as she came as a fresh red rose into my life. Many buts, she’s elder, senior or whatever may count over. I know she is not made for me, but “marrying” is fantastic, the only reason behind is life’s b’ful.

 

Never in my life, I’ve met any such divinity of outlandish stance, a range of tooth imbeds but her face. My expressionless ecstasy for You, my love (admittance), You are going to ruin me and of course! Until You fade up (hope this will rarely happen). Sadist, do You know everyone is a two or a duo? I’ve begun drowning; let’s die to rejuvenate not all for this life after all. I love You is not just what I want to say You, dear, it would be a happy-go-lucky me but You are secluded from actual relations. Do You accept the fact?

 

Marry making or infatuations or connoisseur but the revamping memoirs, time permitting would be spaced; please I want to be yours, let the boundaries in between vanish. Perishable cheers bet, let gone. Prepared white roses would hoax those red ones, yes, my dear, my eyes are waiting a soul, do not be so rude to captivate just another soul in You.

 

My love for You, for ever!

Who could be yours forever,

Dated: forever

 

Hope things go well around You unlike me. I am still waiting for time to come, to off myself from the beauty of life; You know life’s beautiful is surely a dumped idol for me. Feel like my heart’s pondering a bit.........

Thursday, April 20, 2006

Humane: An appraisal for Humanity

When the world is finished in egoism, everyone, still, may not be in cameo-role. There might yet be a paradise, a perfect cloud nine hidden with self-esteem and a prayer for the completeness of so-called human. Every moment thunders, no one cares, souls dirtied, humdrum lauds never again gained but the vista of a heyday target cut her eyelids to “the sight”.

 

Mr Hypocrites burgeoning [Do You believe in You?], is there any space for a person inside a man but only You. I wonder how I could survive in this world. What on the earth am I here for? If I couldn’t change those facial wring, blurbs, the church-mice, the honorable and the pat. Why not be Sui generis? Should we all be just those careless pedestrians merely bipedal? Hope the lit candle continues till the existence of itself. This is because You never know the next minute of Your bilobed phrenal cortex will let You its fortune; let alone those ulterior queer-fish of every person.

 

Burnt yet not inflamed but sublimed is the counterpoint, You should respect. Inhuman fired to ash, long live sensual human soul. Phoenixes get up! Dracos dare cloudier! Never expected how if You are a myzenith fellow in spite of a marvelous maneuvre. Let’s kick, back but not relax ‘n say invisible it’s so . . . .

 

Long live humane, celestials the appraisal, down with ecstasy and fantasy. Just be an AMARSH.

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Monday, April 17, 2006

Dreams and Californication

 

I usually interpret my dreams on the basis of what’s seen and what actually do this has to impact on me. It’s said every dreams carry meanings but the dream I am talking, here about is not the general dream seen during asleep, but these dreams  de facto possess something for humanity, the preaching the lie and lie for ever; sometimes maniac and sometimes unavoidable.

 

I do have certain dreams and without dreams You cannot make the road ahead of You. Dreams endeavor You to the completion. There is no need to be afraid of the spacing between dreams and reality. If You dream, You can make it so.

 

 

Psychic spies from China try to steal Your minds elation

And little girls from Sweden dream of Silver screen quotations

And if You want these kinds of dreams, it’s CALIFORNICATION.

 

 

Whenever my MP3 player plays Red Hot Chilly Pepper‘s this Californication, my dreaming get more widen each time. Redefined and updated dreams come time and again. For some really innovative dreams I pay much attention while some get born to die during thinking.

 

An international remodeling of basic needs, for an instance, might be a great dream to think of. But as You march to envision You sense and dedications, as You go along with the international forum and belongings of the contemporary instincts, You’re close to the destination. People commence assisting You in ways as soon as Your initial steps begin to shower sun beams.

 

This is just a little adventure to talk of. Love is another indicative of Your dream to mark its better presence to the success. When You are motivated by goals that bear deeper meanings, dreams that need completion and pure love that needs expressing, then You will know what it is to truly live. After all, Californication has to do something to instigate every basic human instinct. They really carry great meaning to us in sense You visualize as a verbose. As Your dreams get born, You realize You are living, as they initiate, You realize that You’re at the top and what else when they do complete…. even I am unable to think now.

 

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Poesy: Redefining Options

“Redefining Options” to live life…

 

Still here I am;

the same sun and the land,

no new rays

the vision decades long;

new days come and go;

leaving me apart,

no more down’s in my earth,

no more to hug,

nothing to feel.

         

Lonesome memoirs and leaving

You on the other world,

love gets apathy;

no more tears to rain,

no more flesh to bone, no more You on me to sober.

 

New days come and go,

leaving me apart;

it’s all yellow…

wrecked pieces of options

the only virtue of woes’ tale;

still here I am;

waiting for You.

 

Devoting something for good,

bagging nothing till sounds;

my sea’s sallow,

mountains do!

 

No more feathers ~ to fly,

no more stories ~ to tell;

and no more blues ~ to woes,

to opt to die for thee,

soft rains do rule.

 

New days come and go,

leaving me apart;

faded melancholy

reapering morons ~~

shameless down hill crossings;

the world of odds,

the world of failures.

Still here I am,

To leave to die for the Days to come!

 

Dated: April 14, 2006

HAPPY NEW YEA- 2063

Friday, April 14, 2006

Did you hear the sound play?

It is usually said YOU DO NOT CARE WHAT YOU ARE WITH and what I found lastime was care invention on specific things yields you more to give with. And in the matter of LOVE, or for few more days I shall be tuning more love songs but of desperate types >> wondering na. This song really cased to envision why do you need to love? Though you know the ultimate reason try you might discover.
 
Have You Ever Really Loved a Woman?
To really love a woman
To understand her - you gotta know her deep inside
Hear every thought - see every dream
N’ give her wings - when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin’ helpless in her arms
Ya know ya really love a woman
 
When you love a woman you tell her
That she’s really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she’s the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her
That it’s gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
- really really ever loved a woman?
 
To really love a woman
Let her hold you -
Til ya know how she needs to be touched
You’ve gotta breathe her - really taste her
Til you can feel her in your blood
N’ when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
Ya know ya really love a woman
 
When you love a woman
You tell her that she’s really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she’s the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her
That you’ll always be together
So tell me have you ever really -
Really really ever loved a woman?
 
You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
A little tenderness - gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin’ good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...
 
Then when you find yourself lyin’ helpless in her arms
Ya know ya really love a woman
When you love a woman you tell her
That she’s really wanted
When you love a woman you tell her that she’s the one
Cuz she needs somebody to tell her
That it’s gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
- really really ever loved a woman?
 
Just tell me have you ever really,
Really, really, ever loved a woman?
Just tell me have you ever really,
Really, really, ever loved a woman?
 
>> Post dedicated to someonw who will browse this blog somewhere from Carribean. DO COMMENT.

Friday, April 07, 2006

There Will Come Soft Rains!

Dedicated to human brain that empower the true meaning of being!

In the living room the voice-clock sang, Tick-tock, seven o'clock, time to get up, time to get up, seven o'clock! as if it were afraid nobody would. The morning house lay empty. The clock ticked on, repeating and repeating its sounds into the emptiness. Seven-nine, breakfast time, seven-nine! In the kitchen the breakfast stove gave a hissing sigh and ejected from its warm interior eight pieces of perfectly browned toast, eight eggs sunnyside up, sixteen slices of bacon, two coffees, and two cool glasses of milk. "Today is August 4, 2026," said a second voice from the kitchen ceiling., "in the city of Allendale, California." It repeated the date three times for memory's sake. "Today is Mr. Featherstone's birthday. Today is the anniversary of Tilita's marriage. Insurance is payable, as are the water, gas, and light bills." Somewhere in the walls, relays clicked, memory tapes glided under electric eyes.


Eight-one, tick-tock, eight-one o'clock, off to school, off to work, run, run, eight-one! But no doors slammed, no carpets took the soft tread of rubber heels. It was raining outside. The weather box on the fron door sang quietly: "Rain, rain, go away; rubbers, raincoats for today..." And the rain tapped on the empty house, echoing.

Outside, the garage chimed and lifted its door to reveal the waiting car. After a long wait the door swung down again.

At eight-thirty the eggs were shriveled and the toast was like stone. An aluminum wedge scraped them down a metal throat which digested and flushed them away to the distant sea. The dirty dishes were dropped into a hot washer and emerged twinkling dry.

Nine-fifteen, sang the clock, time to clean.

Out of warrens in the wall, tiny robot mice darted. The rooms were acrawl with the small cleaning animals, all rubber and metal. They thudded against chairs, whirling their mustached runners, kneading the rug nap, sucking gently at hidden dust.

Then, like mysterious invaders, they popped into their burrows. Their pink electric eye faded. The house was clean.

Ten o'clock. The sun came out from behind the rain. The house stood alone in a city of rubble and ashes. This was the one house left standing. At night the ruined city gave of a radioactive glow which could be seen for miles.

Ten-fifteen. The garden sprinklers whirled up in golden founts, filling the soft morning air with scatterings of brightness. The water pelted indowpanes, running down the charred west side where the house had been burned evenly free of its white paint. The entire west face of the house was black, save for five places. Here the silhouette in paint of a man mowing a lawn. Here, as in a photograph, a woman bent to pick flowers. Still farther over, their images burned on wood in one titantic instant, a small boy, hands flung into the air; higher up, the image of thrown ball, and opposite him a girl, hand raised to catch a ball which never came down.

The five spots of paint- the man, the woman, the children, the ball- remained. The rest was a thin charcoaled layer.

The gentle sprinkler rain filled the garden with falling light.

Until this day, how well the house had kept its peace. How carefully it had inquired, 'Who goes there? What's the password?" and, getting no answer from the onely foxes and whining cats, it had shut up its windows and drawn shades in an old-maidenly preoccupation with self-protection which bordered on a mechanical paranoia.

It quivered at each sound, the house did. If a sparrow brushed a window, the shade snapped up. The bird, startled, flew off! No, not even a bird must touch the house!

The house was an altar with ten thousand attendents, big, small, servicing, attending, in choirs. But the gods had gone away, and the ritual of the religion continued senslessly, uselessly.

Twelve noon. A dog whined, shivering, on the front porch. The front door recognized the dog voice and opened. The dog, once large and fleshy, but now gone to bone and covered with sores, moved in and through the house, tracking mud. Behind it whirred angry mice, angry at having to pick up mud, angry at inconvenience.

For not a leaf fragment blew under the door but what the wall panels flipped open and the copper scrap rats flashed swiftly out. The offending dust, hair, or paper, seized in miniature steel jaws, was raced back to the burrows. There, down tubes which fed into the cellar, it was dropped like evil Baal in a dark corner.

The dog ran upstairs, hysterically yelping to each door, at last realizing, as the house realized, that only silence was here.

It sniffed the air and scratched the kitchen door. Behind the door, the stove was making pancakes which filled the house with a rich odor and the scent of maple syrup.

The dog frothed at the mouth, lying at the door, sniffing, its eyes turned to fire. It ran wildly in circles, biting at its tail, spun in a frenzy, and died. It lay in the parlor for an hour Two 'clock, sang a voice.

Delicately sensing decay at last, the regiments of mice hummed out as softly as blown gray leaves in an electrical wind.

Two-fifteen.

The dog was gone.

In the cellar, the incinerator glowed suddenly and a whirl of sparks leaped up the chimney.

Two thirty-five.

Bridge tables sprouted from patio walls. Playing cards fluttered onto pads in a shower of pips. Martinis manifested on an oaken bench with egg salad sandwiches. Music played.

But the tables were silent and the cards untouched.

At four o'clock the tables folded like great butterflies back through the paneled walls.

Four-thirty.

The nursery walls glowed.

Animals took shape: yellow giraffes, blue lions, pink antelopes, lilac panthers cavorting in crystal substance. The walls were glass. They looked out upon color and fantasy. Hidden films clocked though the well-oiled sprockets, and the walls lived. The nursery floor was woven to resemble a crisp cereal meadow. Over this ran aluminum roaches and iron crickets, and in the hot still air butterflies of delicate red

tissue wavered among the sharp aroma of animal spoors! There was the sound like a great matted yellow hive of bees within a dark bellows, the lazy bumble of a purring lion. And there was the patter of okapi feet and the murmur of a fresh jungle rain, like other hoofs falling upon the summer-starched grass. Now the walls dissolved into distances of parched weed, mile on mile, and warm endless sky. The animals drew away into thorn brakes and water holes.

It was the children's hour.

Five o'clock. The bath filled with clear hot water.

Six, seven, eight o'clock. The dinner dishes manipulated like magic tricks, and in the study a click. In the metal stand opposite the hearth where a fire now blazed up warmly, a cigar popped out, half an inch of soft gray ash on it, smoking, waiting.

Nine o'clock. The beds warmed their hidden circuits, for nights were cool here. Nine-five. A voice spoke from the study ceiling: "Mrs. McClellan, which poem would you

like this evening?" The house was silent. The voice said at last, "Since you express

no preference, I shall select a poem at random." Quiet music rose to back the voice. "Sara Teasdale. As I recall, your favorite...

"There will come soft rains and the smell of the ground, And swallows circling with their shimmering sound;

And frogs in the pools singing at night, And wild plum trees in tremulous white;

Robins will wear their feathery fire,Whistling their whims on a low fence-wire;

And not one will know of the war, not one Will care at last when it is done.

Not one would mind, neither bird nor tree, If mankind perished utterly;

And Spring herself, when she woke at dawn Would scarcely know that we

were gone."

The fire burned on the stone hearth and the cigar fell away into a mound of quiet ash on its tray. The empty chairs faced each other between the silent walls, and the music played

At ten o'clock the house began to die.

The wind blew. A falling tree bough crashed through the kitchen window. Cleaning solvent, bottled, shattered over the stove. The room was ablaze in an instant!

"Fire!" screamed a voice. The house lights flashed, water pumps shot water from the ceilings. But the solvent spread on the linoleum, licking, eating, under the kitchen door, while the voices took it up in chorus: "Fire, fire, fire!"

The house tried to save itself. Doors sprang tightly shut, but the windows were broken by the heat and the wind blew and sucked upon the fire.

The house gave ground as the fire in ten billion angry sparks moved with flaming ease from room to room and then up the stairs. While scurrying water rats squeaked from the walls, pistoled their water, and ran for more. And the wall sprays let down showers of mechanical rain.

But too late. Somewhere, sighing, a pump shrugged to a stop. The quenching rain ceased. The reserve water supply which filled the baths and washed the dishes for many quiet days was gone.

The fire crackled up the stairs. It fed upon Picassos and Matisses in the upper halls, like delicacies, baking off the oily flesh, tenderly crisping the canvases into black shavings.

Now the fire lay in beds, stood in windows, changed the colors of drapes!

And then, reinforcements.

From attic trapdoors, blind robot faces peered down with faucet mouths gushing green chemical.

The fire backed off, as even an elephant must at the sight of a dead snake. Now there were twenty snakes whipping over the floor, killing the fire with a clear cold venom of green froth.

But the fire was clever. It had sent flames outside the house, up through the attic to the pumps there. An explosion! The attic brain which directed the pumps was shattered into bronzeshrapnel on the beams.

The fire rushed back into every closet and felt of the clothes that hung there.

The house shuddered, oak bone on bone, its bared skeleton cringing from the heat, its wire, its nerves revealed as if a surgeon had torn the skin off to let the red veins and capillaries quiver in the scalded air. Help, help! Fire! Run, run! Heat snapped mirrors like the first brittle winter ice. And the voices wailed Fire, fire, run, run, like a tragic nursery rhyme, a dozen voices, high, low, like children dying in a forest, alone, alone. And the voices fading as the wires popped their sheathings like hot chestnuts. One, two, three, four, five voices died.

In the nursery the jungle burned. Blue lions roared, purple giraffes bounded off. The panthers ran in circles, changing color, and ten million animals, running before the fire, vanished off toward a distant steaming river...

Ten more voices died. In the last instant under the fire avalanche, other choruses, oblivious, could be heard announcing th etime, playing music, cutting the lawn by remote-control mower, or setting an umbrella franctically out and in the slamming and opening front door, a thousand things happening, like a clock shop when each clock strikes the hour insanely before or after the other, a scene of maniac confusion, yet unity; singing, screaming, a few last cleaning mice darting bravely out to carry the horrid ashes away! And one voice, with sublime disregard for the situation, read poetry aloud all in the fiery study, until all the film spools burned, until all the wires withered and the circuits cracked.

The fire burst the house and let it slam flat down, puffing out skirts of spark and smoke.

In the kitchen, an instant before the rain of fire and timber, the stove could be seen making breakfasts at a psychopathic rate, ten dozen eggs, six loaves of toast, twenty dozen bacon strips, which , eaten by fire, started the stove working again,hysterically hissing!

The crash. The attic smashing into the kitchen and parlor. The parlor into cellar, cellar into sub-cellar. Deep freeze, armchair, film tapes, circuits, beds, and all like skeletons thrown in a cluttered mound deep under.

Smoke and silence. A great quantity of smoke.

Dawn showed faintly in the east. Among the ruins, one wall stood alone. Within the wall, a last voice said, over and over again and again, even as the sun rose to shine upon the heaper rubble and steam:

"Today is August 5, 2026, today is August 5, 2026, today is..."

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Disclaimer to all the readers: This interpretation of the message behind There Will Come Soft Rains Elisabeth Adam' s page entitled The End.

I found this extremely innovating to read and realize, and for that I posted on this blog http://www.i-geek.blogspot.com/. If You think of any complains, suggestions, or anything related to this story and the blog, just comment me or drop message at gearshifts@gmail.com.

At the last repeat I have not written this theme. Please, be content with the contains.

Saturday, April 01, 2006

Little pleasures!

If you have already predefined pleasures, it's worth reading the abstract out of the web. Life's little pleasures served by the cup. Mere thoughts of somnambulism and surrelism are not just okey for pleasure defining.
 
What I like to focus here, is the redefining options for pleaures. It's obvious that Your stories of woes are aparted from mine and a fab vice-versa. I find pleasures being looked after and you might for to look sbd on. And this counts a sort of little pleasures.
 
What one could desire from other[s] is not surely a form factor for pleaures? So it's brief what each of pessimist and optimist views glance on life's little pleasures.
 
Optimist: Hey, little pleasures are what contribute to your successful success in near future and they also good ladder step to your zenith.
Pessimist: Fantasti, little pleasure are, de facto, actual pleasures. These are the real pleasures. No pleasures can be great of such kinds. So, as many other beautiful things pleasures also come in little form but gives much scalated senses.
 
ARE you, by the way, going to search for your little pleasures now? All the best my man!